Been catching up on Guilty Crown for the past few days! I realise I identify with the main character Shu in so many ways, other than the fact he becomes the hero in the end, and I don't.
Somehow, the feeling of depression and sorrow brought my body into a state of complete relaxation. And I've figured out how to enter state without being depressed, heh. Fajin (issuing force, the internal way) came easily after that. Now to practise and refine its edge.